So I broke all 3 of my boards but not my brick. I honestly thought I could, but for the wrong reason. I thought that, even though I'd never broken one before, that we'd have the instructors pretty much hovering over us telling us how to stand, how to position our hand, twist into it, hit down through it to the floor, etc. I knew all that going into it. I know how to do that with a board. But then it was just like, go for it. Seriously? Just me? Where's my support system telling me what to do? After I failed at breaking it, THEN they tell me what I did wrong. I remember thinking: 'No kidding, I know it was wrong.'
Then why did I do it wrong if I KNEW it wasn't right?
Because instead of going in with the confidence of knowing I could go through the brick, I went into it with the confidence of knowing the instructors would help us break them. That's what they've always done. I can't expect to have someone else break through the difficult things for me. I'm the one that has to do that.
However, now I'm still left with an unbroken brick. Now what? Well, tomorrow I spend my entire day mute, so I guess I can use the time to figure it out. Nothing like failing to break it in front of a hundred or so people to make you second-guess yourself. Oh well, if I can do half of the stuff we've all done so far, then it's right back to it all on Monday and pick up where we left off. Think I'm going to throw myself a 2 hr pity party complete with a consolation movie: Murder By Death.... Hilariously funny. Do I smell Nestle' Tollhouse cookies? :)
Devon you were inspiring so no pity party. Sorry!
ReplyDeleteNot that this will make you feel any better but the night of the show last year - about 20 minutes before it started - they told us we were breaking bricks. We did not have time to stress let alone prepare. So stop worrying! You have plenty of time to get through it. Your brick is now your metaphor - it represents everything you still think you can't do...which a bit ridiculous considering everything you HAVE accomplished already. That stupid piece of rock is nothing! You WILL get through it. I know you will. So spend your mute time visualizing your hand hitting the floor and the cloud of dust that forms when the concrete shatters. Cuz that is going to be you girl. Black Belt Mom's RULE!
Devon, CGN Jessica is so right! You will get through it...not breaking your brick on Saturday was a learning moment; plus, it shows all those people that it's not easy. Think about how good you're going to feel when you hit the stage through that brick next month! Hope your cookies were good!
ReplyDeleteCGN Jessica nailed it!! It felt like our minds were racing in a million directions, that we just had to do it to make it stop!
ReplyDeleteNext time you throw a pity party, I want the cookies!! lol =)