Never Give Up

The last few days, that's what I've been thinking: Never give up. Of all times for me to get an injury that interferes with my ability to stand, walk, run, etc., this is probably one of the worst times it could have happened...or one of the best.

I do have to say, the first thoughts immediately after the injury happened and I got the pain under control were angry and centered on how this is the worst thing that could happen. However, as I laid on the floor in the back office, I realized that I could either be angry, or I could have a positive attitude and work through this. While at the hospital, I was certain they were going to say "just stay off it for a couple weeks and take it easy after that until it feels better." When the two doctors came in looking serious and told me what happened, my heart did sink a little, and it took me a minute to get back in that positive state of mind. I can tell you, it is a struggle...especially with all that's going on.

The Block Party is tomorrow, I'm hiring a new manager and a new graphic design/website person at work this month, prepping for a manager to go on maternity leave (who also was assigned to bed rest recently for a short while, and I had to cover for her), getting ready for 2012 budget process, helping out more at Aim High, and oh, did I mention the Dare to Dream test?

So, how is this good for me? Well, now I have get creative with my test and figure out how things can be modified and still satisfy my requirements, ask for help and let people help me (something CGN Brandy ordered me to do), delegate more things I normally do to others and trust they will get them done, sit and let others handle things at the block party when I really want to be walking around helping, and take care of my injury properly because I know if I don't, it won't heal right, and that will affect the rest of my life. All of this requires a large amount of growth.

I see this injury as a test. How much can I adjust my perspective to keep from getting super-stressed? So far, I think I'm doing rather well. I haven't cried yet over the stress, and I feel rather calm right now. My ankle is hurting me, and my leg/foot is swollen and uncomfortable, but I think I'm managing the pain well, ignoring it most of the time, and taking ibuprofen only about once per day. I'm busy delegating at work, and I'm working with KJN and BKJN to come up with ideas to continue training and hopefully test next month.

However, I do know that there is a slight chance I will not test with everyone next month. The board/brick breaking is solved, conditioning can easily be modified, it's the curriculum that I'm most concerned about. If anyone has any ideas, I'd love to hear them. I don't want to give up.

My appointment at the fracture clinic is next Wednesday afternoon, and I'll find out if I need surgery or just some rest and intense physical therapy. I'll come to training that night with a full report from the visit. :0)

Hope everyone is having a good night!