So this past week has been one of the most challenging for me and I think for John (he isn't here but I know I speak for him). John's grandfather who we are really close to had complications from a routine medical procedure Monday and has been in the hospital ever since. For the past 6 days and nights we have been getting up early before work to be there with him, working a full day, John heads out there after work, then I go out again at night until he falls asleep. One night I was there until after 2 AM. This has been absolutely excruciating - Wed and Thurs we were sure we had lost him. By Friday we were the walking zombies.
I haven't trained much this week. I came Monday and Wednesday but missed two jits classes and special training. John didn't even come to class Wednesday. I am in NO way ready to test next Saturday for this phase. But you know I am okay with it.
Throughout the test there are times when you have to choose. Will I go to this birthday party, or that event, or will I come to class? Will I do this event or that event, or will I hang out with friends, get caught up at work etc. And part of the test is just that. Learning to prioritize, make good choices and put yourself and the test first. It is also about striking a balance between your physical, mental and spiritual needs and daily activities.
Well this week I (we) made the choice to put the test second. I have prayed harder and worked mentally harder then ever this week. But my physical took a back seat. I find myself weighing things out in terms of their relevance to the test: is this more important then getting my black belt? Most of the time that answer is no. But this week the answer simply had to be yes.
I know if I don't pass this phase I will be okay with it. If lost grandpa and had not done everything in my power to help him heal, and say goodbye, I would not be.
So much thanks to those of you who knew for the support, positive energy and love this week. You are family and we appreciate it. I'm heading to the hospital again after I finish this blog and maybe with a little luck I'll make it to the gym tonight!
PS - he is doing better but we are not out of the woods yet. :-)
Love, Jess (& John)
Jessica and John, you two are amazing, and even with missing trainings, you are ready for the test. Being able to put your family first is highly important, and I'm glad that you did so. My thoughts are with your entire family. :o)
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