Find Time! - so exhausted.. so proud.. so mixed feelings..

Team! Blogs are looking great and much more mature. again great job.

Lately I've had my, to what I believe, stress related headaches and blochy spots returning. I've heard of this kind of stuff as I've grown up - when working at Intel there was someone in my team that took time off due to this kind of thing - to which I'd thought - yea, not me. I'm a machine that can't break, I have a strong mental strength and am grounded enough to know how to balance. Well years later, and even planned stresses I'm finding myself, at moments, at that place where the tight feeling in my shoulders, shortness of breathe and creeping headaches presume during the days. It's a weird place to be in. I realize what's happening. I'm able to meditate, and refocus and refocus and focus again to alleviate the pressures but at times i need to focus harder than others to maintain a clear head so I can also have a healthy body.

I really need to make time on the floor to train, and to make sure I'm getting my hours in, both in Jits and in Blackbelt training. It is not as simple as just getting on the floor. No it's damn hard,. Whereas Aim High's dojo is a place to turn off the day for most, it IS the day for me. Now don't get me wrong, I'd never want that change, but the effort to turn off the day and escape to a simple place is next to impossible. So, i change the way I look at it, meaning I might think it's impossible, and make it possible through efforts of understanding the situation and making the correct arrangements to allow for the desired outcome. I believe it will always be a struggle to simply walk from the desk and step foot onto the floor without a million needs coming my way, but i'm thankful for each one of those needs and feel that it's because of those issues that we are where we are and have in our school what we have. Once I can ninja my way through it, though, then i'm so settled on that floor.

I have a road to travel to overcome the negatives on these issues, such as the headaches, but really whatever, it'll happen and the outcome will be easier and easier to achieve.

I'm sick and tired of everyone being sick and tired. =) thanks ozzy for that play on words. The team has been so sick and out of work lately. that's hard. a lot of the stresses this year, which is only this month, has come from everyone being sick. I'm SO freaking thankful for my team though, when one's down, then others step up. My board of directors rock and roll too - it's awesome the more i let go of so much that I get to tackle, the more the board steps up and handles things. I was a great feeling to know that all issues were handled when I was out with my Father, and came home to no 'red alert' issues. Thank you team and thank you board. 2011 will be a fantastic year!

-Sbn