drained

honestly, i don't want to do another pushup, sit up, or row. i'm tired. i'm tired of doing them. i'm tired of the writing down all the acts of kindness, environmental acts, making sure that i have everything done when it needs to be done.

i'm not sure if it's because we've been training since april of 2010 or if it's just these last few months. but i'm tired. i don't want to do this anymore. you know that feeling that you get when you run up a steep hill for what seems like forever? well, that's how i feel-physically but i think this is more emotional and mental.

right now, there's 105 days until october 15th. that's 2,521 hours. i can't wait.